In exchange I treated her to a Baskin Robbins ice cream after lunch.
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I guess the 16/8 justified for the lavish carbs I have today. Of course in the evening I have oats for dinner.
Mood improved by two folds today.
Hey Sarah, when are you coming to see me? I had been saving money just in case you show up one day and I am to take you out for some eating experience around my 5 km radius.
Nowadays I am not that singkit (downtrodden). I can afford to buy you a lavish lunch and a fancy dinner and some spare cash for a nice coffee and cake in between. That will give me an excuse to eat all those sinfully rich foods meant for the rich.
How about it honey? I just want 24 hours of your time to sweep you off your feet. Would you like it?
Hey you know something? Dan Brown did mention about spiritual marriage instead of a carnal one in Origin. There were a lot of eureka moments I had while reading the book. As if my thoughts are aligned to his. Of course he is a better storyteller. However the main ideas of the book jive with my thinking. As if he read Dreams of Mirrors before he wrote the book.
Then again, I had always been in agreement with him in his other books. So I believe we are on the same wavelength. Now don't get me wrong. Dan Brown is a class of his own. I however is aligned to his views when comes to science.
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Baby, I miss you. I should say I miss the feeling I had when I first met you. It was like walking on air. Of course that was partly due to the mania but I had a good time.
Nowadays I don't know when I'm gonna be hit by the depression. As of today I am in the mood for some loving.
This song is on air:
Then this song is on air:
I don't know if I influence the songs or I was influenced by the songs but it sure feels good when they synchronized with my thoughts.
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I sure feel like having fun today. What do you want to talk about baby?
If Dan Brown's main theme is about religion vs science, mine is about God and no God. Nowadays I had come to a midpoint; I am God and I am a man fully functioning.
That means I don't deny I am God but I rather claim my rights as a full-fledged human being.
If I am not depressed I can live with that notion comfortably. What is there to worry? My Path is glorious from this point on.
My setback is when I have inflammation and depression. Other than that, my life is a blessing. Whether I accept the idea of me being God or I am an agnostic atheist, I am on a journey that ends with a happy ending. How many people can say that confidently?
We are the some total of our lives experience. So far my life experience had been miraculous. You are one of the miracles. The fact that I married Lizzie and I have 2 wonderful daughters are the signs I am blessed. Then I have Al Araf 7:7. They may just be a set of figurines but the idea that I can converse with them is certainly a feeling money cannot buy.
Even if I don't communicate with them, the sight of this unique collection facing me everyday is just [t]o satisfying.
What I am trying to say is I certainly am complete. I[s] is a tiny spot without excess (pretty much like a needle point) but oooh Sarah, the satisfaction is so immense. My 5 km radius is all that I need. Even the Inland Revenue is only 10 minutes drive (not that it matters LOL).
Now, within the layers of pleasures I derive from my tiny parameter, the Inti Padu (Solid Core) is right here in CCC. What's more, I can get by with RM6 k a year living a heavenly life. I'm not bragging or anything, I just count my blessings.
As simple as being in the comfort of CCC while it's raining cats and dogs outside is a blessing to me. What else can I say feasting my eyes on Al Araf 7:7 and Sailbad the Sinner EVERY DAY!
I guess the key differentiator is not so much the material urge to fit in that I need to be concerned with. It is more of looking a[s] the small things that give meaning to my world that counts.
I termed this as the Simple Pleasures in Life. I managed to carve a niche for myself to survive in a seemingly challenging environment by being a scavenger. Not even that Sarah, I am a nibbler.
I nibble a[s] I scurry for safety. I am more of a rodent that a canine or a feline. I live within the grid but I am out of the grid. Pretty much a domestic rat in my book.
Now you know why I want a microscopic life. As a small nibbler I can still enjoy my environment without having to produce massive amount of energy.
It is the Principle of Minimalism. Small is Beautiful. I do that because I can now compare my flamboyant li[k]e when I was young and reckless with my life now; as an older and wiser person.
The best part is I had sampled both extremes; being a player at the top of my game and now, being contented with a simple life. My conclusion is, if you are not hard up for material gains, you can be very happy with being a minimalist.
Hahaha... This song is on air:
I had found love Sarah. I don't need to find comfort in material gains. I got all that I need. What I should be pursuing is health and happiness. To be thin and fast. To be able to run, run, run and run.
I believe technology had reached it's pinnacle. Whatever add ons are just minor enhancements. Mark my word, it cannot get better than this in terms of utility and the cash we spend.
All we need is to find the sweet spot in everything. For example I can spend on a more expensive car but the sweet spot is a Myvi 1.5 Advance. I can spend on an Pocophone F1 but the sweet spot is a RM900 Asus Zenfone Max Pro M1. I can pay RM15 a month on Spotify but instead I listen to Absolute Classic Rock and 987 for free. I can pay for unlimited talk time and 30 GB data package for RM98 but I opted for a RM50 package with less utility. You get my point?
I am a nibbler. I look for the best utility over cost deals and still live better than those who are in the rat race. Of course I need to treat money as a limited resource unlike when I was a high flyer riding the corporate life.
My only gripe if you want to consider its as such is my physical network and range are smaller. Well, I like it small. Therefore it's not really a gripe isn't it?
As long as I got you, Lizzie, the kids and Al Araf 7:7, I don't really miss much. Lizzie is a much more minimalist than me and she gets by. Who am I to complain? I am a retiree. This is a dream come true for a person who has nothing.
You don't have to feel sorry for me. By right, like many people, you should envy my lucky star. After 20 years of turmoil, I made it. As they say, what doesn't kill you will make you stronger.
Oh well Sarah, you know me by now. I always look for the silver lining in every situation. I can say I will be having a different view if I have a lot of money but the truth is I may not establish the equilibrium that I am having now.
I will buy the same thing more or more expensive. For sure I will not have quality time much like I am having now. The best part about all this is I am no longer like a dog chasing its own tail.
So yeah, I will definitely have plenty to buy with more money. I however cannot guarantee that I am happier. With this present life my only worry is I don't exercise as much as I want to (considering I still CHOOSE to eat whatever I like). Even that is a question of choice rather than a condition that I have to live by.
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