It has no bearing whatsoever towards the reality as others see it. In another word, all the things I described to you about everything that I saw and wrote are products of a highly imaginative mind influenced by the surge of dopamine flow.
I may or may not be God because there may of may not be God. Therefore the journey that we took is a journey within my mind and is purely imaginative.
Note: I still cannot explain about the miracles I encountered especially the alignment of my numbers and all those epiphanies. Maybe they are just patternicity.
In its truest sense I am a Nothing; just like the 7 billion people out there. The only difference is each of us creates our own meaning to our existence. In reality, we all gonna die and end up as nothing.
However, while we are alive, we do our best to make ourselves feel special. There is nothing special about each one of us. We all going to die in the end and we will disintegrate into our simplest form and recycled into the environment again.
There is no afterlife, no heaven and no hell. Even if there is, it has a very different meaning then what we have now.
In my super massive imagination of the universe, we are nothing more than particles in a self-powered electromagnet revolving for eternity.
Therefore, the real meaning to life is the meaning that we give to it NOW. Not in the past and not in the future.
My present is my White Space. It is the highest attainment I can ever imagine. Rather than see it as a goal that I attain in the distant future like my afterlife (which may or may not exist), I concluded that where I am now i[t] the highest I ever be.
I had also decided that my 5 km radius is where my heaven is and where I am the most happiest.
With that I even conclude that my CCC is the pinnacle of my happiness and everything that I need is right here within these 5 walls.
So with that I establish myself as the Autonomous Ruler of my own kingdom and only focus on things that matters to me; which is health and happiness through diet and exercise. By that I mean by eating whatever I like and exercise whenever I feel like it.
As I progress I will improve on both to increase my performance as a man fully functioning. Until then I had made up my mind that the past 20 years I am nothing more than a person that is mentally unstable because I was highly stressed and was on the influence of cannabis and cigarettes.
Because of that my brain cannot regulate the dopamine surge and I experienced mood swings in a form of Bipolar Affected Disorder.
With that I reinstate my position as an agnostic atheist. However since I am the master of my own thoughts, I also establish that I am the ruler of my own realm which at present constitutes my figurines (my network) and CCC (my range).
Technically speaking my parameter now is only 12 meters square.
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